We do not receive wisdom, we must discover it for ourselves, after a journey through the wilderness which no one else can make for us, which no one can spare us, for our wisdom is the point of view from which we come at last to regard the world. ~Marcel Proust
Spiritual practice is a dangerous thing. Once you learn, you can never un-learn. ~Unknown Source
Practicing yoga is much like this. When you breathe and move intentionally and this becomes part of your daily practice, the journey is just beginning. Many people come to yoga seeking better bodies, detoxified systems, or just a good sense of relaxation. This is the nice part… where your yoga practice is something you look forward to. But what happens when you practice longer is that you start to see the un-shiny parts of yourself. You start to see your own flaws, your own shortcomings. You try to blame it on other people, but your yoga practice won’t let you. You try to blame the yoga; so you quit, thinking it will make everything feel better. This discomfort doesn’t go away.
Unfortunately, no one tells you that when you sign up for a dedicated yoga practice it is like a journey through the wilderness. You must make the journey through the darkness yourself. The beauty of this is that (if you stick with your daily breathwork and movement) you find this wonderful light at the end. You grow out of your old, habitual ways of relating to yourself and others and you find this sense of connection. You remove barriers and open yourself up in ways you didn’t know you could. You also learn to trust yourself and you no longer let people treat you in disrespectful ways. You shift, relationships shift, but all for the better.
My message to you this morning is this… If yoga has made you uncomfortable in your own skin, keep going! Get support, talk to other yoga students and your teachers. This is where all the magic happens. When you stick to your practice with guidance and care, then you can experience life as you were meant to- whole and unafraid.