A few months ago (just before the damage to the floors at Augusta Road), I was living in fear. Every interaction I had became tainted by this fear. No, not the fear of death; but fear that the life I had chosen wasn’t sustainable. At the time, business was slowing down and I was afraid. Afraid no students would come back. Afraid Augusta Road wouldn’t take off the way North Main had. It seemed this fear invited everyone to offer opinions to me on the subject even though I didn’t ask. Maybe we should offer hot yoga someone offered. Maybe I should teach harder classes another one offered. Maybe we just weren’t right for the area said another kind soul. At the time I didn’t realize it, but it was my fear that kept these recurring voices going strong.
The damage at Augusta Road was such a blessing in disguise. I have spoken of it before, but I didn’t realize how trapped I was in worry, self-doubt and fear. When we closed the doors we decided to invest time to remind ourselves of who we are and what we wish to share with the world. It took us a while and we are still working on it. Every little conversation and decision has brought new life to our school and our students. We couldn’t be more grateful. Hindsight is 20/20. I see now that I made a choice to no longer operate in fear and find power in the situation.
It has been a few months and I realized that small, fearful voice has not reared its head (and neither have any other voices funny enough). I am no longer afraid, just excited and curious about what comes next. Brian and I have found a renewed joy in working together and creating something special for each of you. We only hope that you feel it too.
Today, notice if fear is a voice in your head. If it is, practice surrender and letting go. Just like a storm comes, stays a while and moves away. So too does an emotional storm. Your storm may be caused by fear, anger, sorrow; but remember you are more than your emotions and you can find freedom in those moments.