Recovering Perfectionist

Recovering Perfectionist

Recovering Perfectionist

It has been a long journey in and out of perfectionism.  Sometimes you have to be on the other side to see just how far you have come.  After decades of trying to do everything “right” and avoid criticism, I finally discovered that I have let this piece of me slip away.  If I do get snared, I catch myself.  I take a breath and repeat “forgiven, forgiven, forgiven.”  Sometimes this small self fades away quickly other times it may take a little longer.  My job is to notice and let go as best I can.  I never realized how tangled up I was in being perfect until I started learning meditation and stillness practices.  When you begin to watch your own thoughts, you see clearly.  In my first weekend training with Sarah Powers she shared this poem.  May it start you on the road to recovery and help you know you are perfect just as you are… perfectly imperfect.

The Perfect Cup

it is time for me to see the flaws of myself
and stop being alarmed

it is time for me to halt my drive for perfection
and to accept my blemishes

it is time for me to receive slowly evolving growth
the kind that comes in God’s own good time and pays no heed to my panicky pushing

it is time for me to embrace my humanness
to love my incompleteness

it is time for me to cherish the unwanted
to welcome the unknown to treasure the unfulfilled

if I wait to be perfect before I love myself
I will always be unsatisfied and ungrateful

if I wait until all the flaws, chips, and cracks disappear
I will be the cup that stands on the shelf and is never used

~Joyce Rupp (From “The Cup Of Our Life: A Guide for Spiritual Growth”)

 

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Elizabeth Delaney